At just shy of 15 months, Luke decided that he was done with nursing. We've only been doing a morning feeding for about 3 month now, so I knew it was coming soon. For the past year plus, Josh has brought him into the room to me in the morning, and we start the day in the bed. He would get in his morning milk; I would have a few minutes to sit with him and wake up a bit.
I thought we were going to have to wean him, and it would perhaps be a struggle (that kid loves to eat!) But, in the end, he just made up his little mind. For me, it was a bit sad because it meant a season with him was leaving, but at the same time, it was a relief.
Unfortunately, Luke isn't a huge fan of milk (we've tried whole and almond), so I'm not really sure how to solve that problem. For now, we just give him other forms of dairy and lots of water :)
Now, after experiencing the full circle of journey of nursing Luke, I wanted to share a few thoughts about it.
Basically, in a nutshell, I loved and not-really loved nursing.
What I loved:
- I loved many of those moments of bonding with Luke (especially when he was in the NICU, it was the only time I could really hold him) and having something that was special between us.
- I loved having an "on tap" supply. It was nice to not have to bother with bottles and making sure that we always had a supply with us. I could nurse in the car, in a boat, on a plane, in a store, I could nurse anywhere :)
- I loved saving money on formula.
- I loved that I was helping him stay happy (and fat!). I know that a lot of women struggle with breastfeeding, so I was very thankful that it worked for us.
What I didn't love so much:
- I didn't love how "on demand" I was. It was difficult to be his one source of food in the first 6 months. Honestly, even if I got out for a bit, I felt like the clock was always ticking in my ear (you have to get home by 3, you have to get home by 3...) Even if I could turn off that inner voice, my body sure was happy to remind me ;)
- I didn't love the pain at the beginning. It hurt. A lot. Luke is tongue-tied, so his latch wasn't super great. Plus, it meant that he spent a lot of time nursing. In the first few months, his nursing session usually lasted 30-45 minutes. For a few months, I spent close to 40 hours a week nursing him.
- I didn't love pumping (does anyone?). Since I didn't have a fancy pump (something that I'm definitely interested in investing in next time!), it was super tedious to pump. So, that meant that getting out was even harder because it was hard to pump enough milk for me to get away.
All in all, nursing Luke until he was almost 15 months old, isn't something I take for granted. I am so ridiculously thankful that we had that time and that we stuck it through. I know many women who would do anything to do that, but their bodies/circumstances don't cooperate. On the other hand, I wouldn't say that my experience was all butterflies, rainbows, and unicorns. Breastfeeding was not always easy or simple for us. And I think that's okay :)
Would I do it again? Absolutely :)